maven
hugs from the heart. thats a lot of frustration going on there! crying and screaming can be good for that! heres a pillow if you dont want to scare the neighbours.
i dont know where you live or what your interests are but i had to get out of the house today too so i went to an art gallery and just spent an hour staring at pictures and then doing a bit of writing because they were so inspiring. entry to the gallery was free btw and then i went and sat in a totally secluded part of a park where i wasnt bothered much by people (it helped that it was drizzling rain. lol) and just watched the robins and pigeons for another while. i felt so much better after.
and you DO matter!! and if your bf doesnt realise that he needs his ears boxed!

edited for spelling (drives me nuts when i see mistakes as soon as i post it)