In a few days I have to see an old friend who I've been crazy about for years but we never ended up being a thing. I've gone about a year now since seeing him last and have become a new person and don't want to fall back into the sense of admiration and respect and I used to have for him. He's overall a nice guy and a really good friend but also kind of an asshole and I'm SURE I still have feelings for him and they will all come rushing back once I see him and I'll be back to square one, trapped in this unrequited love I dealt with for years. I'm DREADING seeing him.

I just got out of another situation in which I experienced heartache with this other sleaze ball and I just feel really delicate and insecure and like this feeling is never going to end. Ugh what should I do to deal with this mentally?