I was physically and verbally abused by my mother and my T says there is a huge element of physical and emotional neglect too.

I found out recently that my mother has a heart condition.

The problem is I know that this is just going to be used to get me to reinstate contact through emotional blackmail.

My mother is a very competent play actor, victim and manipulative game player- she will be able to turn it all around so that I come across as a b**ch for not taking the olive branch as some in my family don't understand the level of abuse I suffered at her hands or refuse to remember what that time was like or how I feel about any of it.

There is already so much going on this Christmas that is anxiety provoking and really difficult, but I fear this is going to push me over the edge if I'm right and either my mother or my other family members think we need to make peace because of her heart condition.

Quite frankly I'm surprised they found a heart for her to have a condition! The woman is vile and toxic and I have a 7 year old daughter to think about.

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