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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
Yes I saw that you posted in the HPD forum. Good to see you here, there's more people in this forum.
So, are you saying that you back away from people when they're attracted to you because you're trying not to destroy your marriage in spite of your personality disorder? Am I understanding correctly?
What kind of therapy are you doing? Is it helping you? What is it in your therapy that you are focusing on? What issues caused by your HPD are you trying to improve on?
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My therapy has been "hit or miss" to date and it finally culminated in
Before my diagnosis, I most likely would have begun to seduce her. I have never had a monogamous relationship, even though I crave it. My therapy has been sketchy at best...seeing a therapist, if I'm lucky once every 2 months. Now my health care provider seems very interested in my mental health and I am seeing a new therapist today to begin Dialectic Behavioral Therapy (DBT) and an daily program where I will check in to the facility in the morning, be in therapy throughout the day, and return home in the evening.
As for what I want to focus on...I need to stop looking for validation from women. I'm a mess, and I need to get to the fundamental issues as to why I am the way I am.
On my own, I wrote my "life story" so I could see it in black and white and it is nothing but a repeated pattern of failed relationships and womanizing. I thought of putting it up in the histrionic forum, but it is nothing but a sordid mess.
My last emotional affair was discovered by my wife on 12/19/14 and she was the one who triggered me to investigate why I do what I do (WTF is wrong with your head!?)
My wife is a wonderful woman and I am amazed that she has opted to stay by my side through this. I owe it to her that I get better. thank you for your response.
