I've never lied outright to the guy. What omissions I have are as much to protect him as to protect me (any information that specifically has the potential to significantly compromise the quality of care I receive or that he is able to provide). I'm at peace with those omissions (not haunted or trapped by them), and an absolute open book besides: honest to a fault. Unfortunately he has that common therapists' habit of wanting to find a hidden or alternate meaning in everything, which is pretty counterproductive when I'm self-aware and unguarded.
I can see why people would lie in therapy. My honesty hasn't gotten me very far, and it becomes exhausting to keep putting myself out there in the way that I do without even acknowledgement for its existence.
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“We use our minds not to discover facts but to hide them. One of things the screen hides most effectively is the body, our own body, by which I mean, the ins and outs of it, its interiors. Like a veil thrown over the skin to secure its modesty, the screen partially removes from the mind the inner states of the body, those that constitute the flow of life as it wanders in the journey of each day.”
— Antonio R. Damasio, “The Feeling of What Happens: Body and Emotion in the Making of Consciousness” (p.28)
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