Frustrated ramble thread, don't mind me.

I'm starting to think my mom is right when she says I'm unemployable (due to my poor social skills, which I think might be legit). It seems no matter how many jobs I apply for, how many resumes I send out, I either get flat-out ignored, passed up for someone with more experience, or I get an interview and blow it.

I'm a college dropout with no chance of going back, and the only work I've ever done was a very temporary job basically given to me via a youth work program. I mean, I did well there, but it's over now and I'm back to constant rejection. Despite my lousy social skills I find myself regularly applying to very people-involved jobs, mostly because that's all I qualify for in terms of education and experience.

Yes, I'm on welfare (rather, I was. I got kicked off due to the aforementioned job), and SNAP, the latter of which I abuse so badly almost every month I consider going down and having my case closed to let myself starve as punishment for being so untrustworthy. Though really, my misuse of food stamps kind of wavers in my conscience, between "I'm a horrible person with no self-control and I don't deserve food" to "Oh, fck it. I have it, no one's come and said anything about how I use it, I'm a f-ing failure, so who cares?"

I'm not that great with money either: from eating takeout to buying myself random junk on a whim with what little money I have, I'm kind of a screw-up. I've been looking into self-employment, investing, writing, anything that's basically work-from-home that I might be able to do with minimal contact. God I'm a screw-up though, and it's driving me crazy.