He told me he didn't mean for me to stop texting him. Then was like I gave you space and waited for a reply, and waited. And I'm like I'm sorry I have been depressed and unstable for two months. I told him if he wanted to make it personal he could. Then he said he wasn't making it personal.

So I don't know. One minute its like he's quilting me, the next he's being logical and composed. I'm pissed at him. Because I don't know if he's attacking me or being reasonable and I'm too emotional not to react badly either way. This isn't the first time he's given me confused feelings like this. But its probably just me. Not understanding people and relationships with my BPD black and white thinking. I feel pretty fed up with people in general at the moment, and have to work tonight. Dealing with people. I'm not sure how much longer I'm going to be able to do this....work while falling deeper and deeper into depression. Especially when I do retail.