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I often get stuck in a loop of thinking about were my life is heading, reliving bad memories, replaying conversations in my head and fixating on everything I've ever done wrong.
Sometimes I can fool myself into forgetting about the bad things and I can go days without thinking of my future so much, but after a while reality hits me and I realize that I'm not going to accomplish the things I want because of my problems.
Whenever I get better it lasts a month and then everything comes back and it takes the rest of the year to even feel okay.
It's like I'm wasting time on something I don't even know if can be fixed.
I barely even leave the house anymore unless I have to and it feels like I'm missing out on most of the things people my age do. I'm afraid I won't have any sort of social life or friends left by next year.
I can't see myself live a fulfilling life in the future. I used to think better of my life but now I suspect that I was lying to myself so I wouldn't have to think about reality.
Does anyone else feel like they're wasting time and should be out doing something instead of looking after themselves?
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