PTSD isn't the same as DID as the uninformed women at Grady Hospital a year ago stated when I disclosed being DID, but only because I was being outed every where every where I thought this is what everyone wanted!!! They brained washed me into this psychological torture so when i'm very overt it must be a reason why something has happened....Actually though Always changing it was the best decision I could ever make to return back up North, to Philadelphia! There is no way you can know everything that happen from 2011 up until now, but believe me it was all this secrecy and someone plans who preyed on my lack of understanding that lead to all this hurt so when it got time to let my mom in on what all that was happening I couldn't basically cause it was locked up inside!!.....I tell everything!!! especially if I feel like someone might have to fight my battle or least a paper trail for lawyers etc.

Actual you can repeat the inner dialogue only when you know they might be diagnosing you in mental hospital....Alwayschanging cause that is when a lot of systems get worse enough to get diagnosed when things are that bad, baby I was high functioning for a long time....

I'm not suicdical just free!