Hiya My name is Alicia.
Ever since I can remember I have always had SA/GA. Even going back to toddler days I would get sick before school and holidays.
It wasn't until I was 14, when my mother left on a BP schizoaffective binge that I started Therapy. There was no progress made, just crying. until a psychiatrist prescribed Xanax, which at the time made me more happy and carefree than sleepy and relaxed.
Years later I went to a state funded counseling center where I went through many psychiatrists and diagnoses.
At 25 I became an addict after suffering from, what they call now, IBSD. At 26 I was diagnosed with Bipolar II along with major depressive disorder. My manic episodes which started at 26, was the norm compared to the women in my immediate family who all suffer current delusions of grandeur among other creative and normal psychotic features. Mine were an overly outgoing attitude, drugs, alcohol, sex and rarely any sleep. this has happened 4 times. I am now 32. The mania never lasted long. I had always come down and eventually locked myself away since then. I rarely drive or go outside. I don't go to stores. Unusual, but, recently at a low point I started cutting. Twice. the second time I knew something was wrong because that's just not a normal trait I have so Now I am on new meds. I came to this website because I've explored others, and well, This one seems the most heartfelt. Thanks for that.