Hey, all. It's hard to describe exactly what's going on. I used to routinely see a therapist, and also have been on paxil since I was very young for anxiety and OCD.

Lately, I've had some different symptoms. I'm 27, and within the last year or so, I've started having some major issues that I'm trying to figure out.

My first love and boyfriend of like 4 years (lived together for 3) and I broke up like 2 years ago, and ever since then I've had this ridiculous fear of abandonment. He cheated on me with a girl that I hate and that is friends with my best friend. She knew the whole time, and I've been close to her since I was 5 years old. It just makes me wonder about people - if anyone in this whole world is trustworthy.

Anyway, my self worth has been totally shot. I'm not even sad about losing my ex anymore. It took me quite a while to get there - over a year. But I'm honestly not. These days, I have this just... general mistrust of everyone.

I drink way too much, and don't care if I have to go drive right after. I get irrationally angry at people I'm close to for no reason. I'm overly sensitive. I'm IMPULSIVE.

This probably doesn't nearly describe what I'm going through at all, but I'm currently seeking out a psychiatrist gain to see if I can be helped at all. And also hoping to join a community of people who likely know what I'm going through.

So anyway... hi.