Idk how I feel. Idk what I'm supposed to feel. Am I crashing? I'm desperate for sleep but wide awake despite all my sleep hygeine efforts.

I feel like self harming to see how bad I can hurt and I feel like taking the whole bottle of zyprexa just so u can ****ing sleep. I just wanna sleep time away but I can't!!! I'm so frustrated and miserable.

Idk how I even feel