It's really hard when you are battling with yourself because it must be yourself that will encourage you to get up and think you are worth it.

You are stronger than those voices that you hear. They're liars. Do not agree with what they're saying. As you were keep obeying those voices over the years, it will be challenging for you to resist it. But I tell you, you can! Wake up from the darkness because it's just crippling you and doesn't help you to unleash your potential.

I'm sorry I don't have that "to-do list" for you to follow as it is a battle of the mind. It is a battle with your own self. It is a battle, which means you need to do something.