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Originally Posted by scaredycat3
I often get stuck in a loop of thinking about were my life is heading, reliving bad memories, replaying conversations in my head and fixating on everything I've ever done wrong.
Sometimes I can fool myself into forgetting about the bad things and I can go days without thinking of my future so much, but after a while reality hits me and I realize that I'm not going to accomplish the things I want because of my problems.
Whenever I get better it lasts a month and then everything comes back and it takes the rest of the year to even feel okay.
It's like I'm wasting time on something I don't even know if can be fixed.
I barely even leave the house anymore unless I have to and it feels like I'm missing out on most of the things people my age do. I'm afraid I won't have any sort of social life or friends left by next year.
I can't see myself live a fulfilling life in the future. I used to think better of my life but now I suspect that I was lying to myself so I wouldn't have to think about reality.
Does anyone else feel like they're wasting time and should be out doing something instead of looking after themselves?
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Are you dealing with depression hon? Sometimes I just have to make myself go out, even to the park just to feel good. Staying in makes a body feel worse, it's like a self-feeding destructive force that spins out of control and can consume a life.... I know, I've done it, even though I'm socially challenged, but that's because of other things.
Stay out of your head if you can! Never direct thoughts inward, especially when you are depressed, taking yourself out of the equation.
Actually, everything that I'm telling you, I can do myself right now. I'm going to think about it because there is a Christmas party tomorrow night.
