I plan to be completely honest. I am definitely not stable right now but I don't know if I am reacting to stress or having a real episode. I do know that my thoughtsare unbalanced and when I am stressed go straight to the worst. Other times when I feel ok, my thoughts are normal.

I'd say that about twice a month right now I get very down and ready to end it all, but I know that a few days to a week later I will only be mildly depressed and maybe even ok.

I could live with it if it weren't interfering with my life. When I am really bad, i can't even work. I just go to bed for hours after dropping the kids at school.