I'm glad you slept. The suicidal stuff sounds scary. I hate those feelings and thoughts. I've felt the "I can't sleep so if I just take a handful or two maybe it will finally work and I'll sleep forever" thing a lot of times.

Until this year I've always gone to mixed. This year was mixed and then depressed. Menopause has changed my BP and I think it may be part of this since I have no other explanation. 3 months mixed, 9 months severe depression is definitely better than 12 months mixed though. Who knows where I'm headed when I come off Seroquel.

I hope you have calmer, better day.