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Originally Posted by marmaduke
You are not twisted, you are not disgusting or horrible.
You are normal, you are a victim, and being used as a slave no wonder you feel resentful.
Are there any jobs like residential ones, where you could live in. A hotel or something, you could save every penny you earn towards more education. They might be crappy jobs but at least you get away from home and get paid.
I don't blame you for hating grandma looking after this old woman is not your job.
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Thank you... I can't tell you how much this helps. I was really on the verge of tears when I wrote that... I feel that my head has cleared up a bit...
I did try looking for such jobs but I found none. I live in a tiny town. I have next to no experience in the working field and barely any qualifications so it's hard to get hired for any kind of job.
I am currently trying to work online as a freelance conceptual artist but it's not going too great as there too I lack experience.
The impossibility of having my own source of income to move out is one of the reasons I feel so trapped. And there is also the lack of motivation that sometimes prevents me from leaving the bed...
I guess I need to see a therapist before anything can happen...