jaslkjflaksjflkajsf. i keep having obsessive thoughts about someone i got rid of in my life. i thought maybe i missed them, so i contacted them, and just no. now i can't stop thinking of either self-harm or harming this person. i wouldn't do either, but the obsessive thoughts are driving me insane. i've played like 15 hours of skyrim to try and focus on something else, not working, lol.

anyway, other than that, i'm doing alright. not excited about christmas, just want it to be over. i always am irritated during the last few months of every year. from like september to january i get weird. haha.

-drops the mic-
-bows off the stage-