Friend issues. They all pissed me off. And now I'm just like...okay, they got issues too, and it probably isn't me.
I'm letting go of two of them though. Because they are kind of...dead. And I think we all know it. Its a long story. But I just can't fight with myself other two of these people any more, so they're no longer going to be in my life. Not that I'm going to lash out and whatnot, just quietly disappearing. I barely exist anyway. And I can't force the one to interact with me.
Thursday a guy friend I am on the fence about liking asked if I wanted to hang out today. So last night I texted him last night asking, he said yes. And I ranted about being on register. He never responded. So I sent him a text a couple of hours ago, saying I hadn't heard from him all day but I'm sick anyway so I can't hang out. And no response. So why would you ask someone to hang out with you on a specific day, then not even contact your friend to tell them something came up. I would. I would absolutely apologize and arrange for another day.
I'm pissed. But like..only half pissed because I'm numb and just don't give a ***** about anything anymore. People let me down all the time. Which is fine, but at least...please...at least text me saying you can't. Don't just....just ditch me. You know? I am losing faith in other people. They are so disappointing. I'm sure he'll have an explanation when he does get back to me, but I still went through the day feeling this way.
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Bipolar Type II with Psychotic Features
PTSD with Dissociative Features
Borderline Personality Disorder
ADD
Social Phobia
Creative Writer and Artist
Genderfluid
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