Blackraynebow... I am so sorry for your loss. It is difficult to lose a parent much less two. (((hugs))) You will get through this, it will take time but trust me you will. In the meantime know that we are here for you. I lost my dad 3 yrs ago. His birthday is dec. 24th. And my mom is failing. You are in my prayers, keep posting, we are here for you.