I don't know. IF I have to come off Klonopin too (and I've been on benzos for 16 solid years except for a few months here and there so long ago I can't remember when so that will be massively difficult) I'm not sure how I will ever be calmed down. Right now hydroxyzine is extremely sedating for me so hopefully that will continue. I take a low dose of gabapentin and am ok with it but in the past being on a higher dose of it made me completely loopy. Like could only function in the hospital on it loopy, but it might be an option.

Being on an MAOI is going to be a big problem here because it eliminates some meds that might help. I think my pdoc mentioned once something about trying to use another AP without QT syndrome as a bridge to get me on Clozaril but she hasn't mentioned it since and that's tricky because I can only afford generics and the atypical generics I'm either allergic to or they don't work for me or they cause EPS and typicals I'm at really high risk for EPS because I have had it numerous times. So I'm not sure what they'd use. Zyprexa maybe although in the past we tried it and found it did absolutely nothing for me. I don't know; I guess I'll find out Monday when I see my pdoc. I'm going to have her describe exactly what to expect with this and what might happen as well even though we'll hope that those things don't. But I need to know if my mom needs to be aware that I might suddenly be psychotic and completely out of touch with reality or at any other extreme she has never seen and which I might not be able to help myself. I hate the idea that I may not be able to make decisions but she may have to decide it is time to go to the ER. So it's only fair she have some understanding in advance. Based on the past I expect that I will need to be IP with only a small dose reduction. I made it to 800 mg this summer before I needed to go in but I was on another AP at the time. So it may be that 1000 mg is as low as I can go OP.

I guess I'll see and hopefully my pdoc will have some idea what to expect Monday although trying to predict what my body will do with a medication can be tricky.