I don't know what to do. For years I've thought that I was just being stupid. I have nothing to be sad about but, at the time, I knew that it wasn't normal to feel the way that I do. Every single month I have these... Phases? I thought maybe it was just something teenagers went through. Till I came across a post about bipolar disorder. It wasnt just the depressed state. The irritability, the loss of sleep and the restlessness, the helplessness and the hopelessness, the too-chipper and too energetic, it freaked me out and I dont know.

That phase is coming again. I dont know. Somebody tell me that I'm being stupid.