Hey Petal Welcome to Psych Central

I'm so sorry for what happened to your little girl and your depression

I think you should sit down with your boyfriend and have a very quite chat with him, and make sure you build up for it very well, in a way that he'll be ready, and ask him that you simply want him to listen and understandably validate your feelings, and not to give you unsolicited advices. I think if he really saw what you're going through, there won't be much need to always call your doctor

You can also write a letter to your boyfriend. Don't write it in a way that would offend him or show that you believe that he doesn't care, just tell him calmly about your feelings. Tell him you love him too, I think that will trigger his good masculine instincts, and then he will hopefully do his best to help you

All the very best!