I have read these posts and it sound like you might be mixed. Even through your depression you seem to have loads of energy and impulsive thoughts. If you have even the smallest doubt that you can be safe on your own you need to be with other people or if that is not possible, have a talk with your T and ask if you can text or email when these things are happening. I fear being sent to the hospital too, but i have received a lot of advice from people here and I am realizing that If I demonstrate that I am willing to work with T and be completely honest about how I feel, that he will be able to help me. Also, I need to trust his opinion and if I really need to go IP he will be honest with me too. There are not a lot of beds available and I am sure Ts and P-docs don't just throw people in unless they really need to go.