I honestly never thought I would get to this point. I mean I've been depressed and s**t for the longest but yeah recently suicide has been on my mind. Of course people say "get help" but I already tried that and there is only so much they can do. I mean I take pills and see a counselor but it isn't enough. My whole f*****g life especially now though I felt so f*****g different from people. Everyone gets pissed so easily. They have these morals that don't logically make sense and never use logic, just emotion and your not allowed to disagree with anyone. I can never make friends beyond school. I spend all of my time alone in my room listening to music and s**t. My dad and step parents are impossible to communicate with as my stepmom is just a b***h and my dad just kisses her *** and only gives a f**k about me when she isn't around. When it comes to making friends and s**t I feel like there is something everyone else knows that I am missing and I can't figure it out. I have basically given up. I mean it sucks too because in school I sometimes have a really fun time with friends but I just don''t know what the f**k to do to make the relationships meaningful and go beyond school. My mom is the only one I consistently talk to who has any sympathy or empathy for my problems. My dad and stepmom just do the tough love thing and make me feel guilty for going through this s**t that I have no idea how to fix. I just want it to be over I can't do it anymore. I just want people I can say are my friends and chill with and have actual relationships in my life and not be alone all the time. Please no f*****g self righteous ******** in the thread I don't need it.