I have an outgoing personality and alot of energy, however underneath it all I'm very insecure.

Lately I've started to feel like my personality annoys some people as I can be loud, and in work I've been labelled as a bit of a clown which at first was funny but now has become very hurtful as people make comments about me being "crazy" or "loud", because I can be that way after a few drinks. But it makes me feel like an idiot and I'm sick of people making those comments. Its like no one respects me.

I'm now beginning to worry so much about what people think about me and it's so upsetting. I always thought my energy and funniness was a good thing but the older I get the more I think I'm just an annoyance to people or a joke.

I wish I could just like myself enough not to care what anyone thought. Or maybe the problem is me and I need to change, but I can't change who I am.

I just wondered if anyone has any advice at all?