Again I am having trouble with the holidays.

Depression, sadness and loneliness. I have invitations but I don't want to attend. I feel like I am just a body to fill up a space. That no one would even notice if I were there.

My FOO will just criticize and make demands and my teens are teens.

I got depressed this time of year and last year and went off my meds. I am not going to do the same this year, but I want to.

It seems for my bipolar, the meds seems to work for mania but not so great for depression.

I hate bipolar.