I'm brand new at this. This is my first post on a forum ever. I don't even understand all the "ins and outs" of how it works. Anyway, I read your post and am feeling the same way. I have family coming for Christmas and I feel overwhelmed by the idea of preparing dinner, etc. I've been depressed now for months with no relief. I can't seem to find any medicine that works for the depression either. I am grateful I haven't had any manic episodes though.