Ok - first question: "Not even a smidgen?"
You tell me (keep in mind this is emotional n psychological abuse):


So - if you want to say that has to do with my childhood, so be it - your opinion is your entitlement. I stand by my assessment of my life.

Second question: "Why were you kicked out?"
There was a situation which arose that caused me severe depression and one of the workers became concerned I was suicidal. She called the police to take me for an evaluation. I was cleared for that but the hospital was concerned I had been having multiple minor heart attacks so kept me overnight for observation. When the hospital released me it was 30min past when the workers leave for the day so I called the hotline to tell them I needed to be picked up. They gave me a lot of excuses as to why they cannot pick me up - including "I do not know where you are at" (even after I told them my location). The hospital refused to let me leave without transportation and an escort- but for every hour I stayed after my official release I was being charged double the fee for staying that my insurance would not cover. The community buses were no longer running that day (it was a Saturday), and I was not allowed to take a taxi to the shelter because it was supposed to be an anonymous location. So - I had to find somewhere else to go, but only other place to go was my ex-husband house. So - I had a taxi take me there - but I could not leave til Monday bc community buses didn't run again til then n when I called to tell shelter I would b back on Monday they simply said to meet them somewhere to pick up my things.

Third: "And why go back to him of all people?"
Family had made it clear before I left for shelter they would not help me in any way, had no friends, no other shelter to go to, no money for bus

Fourth: "So, if he defaulted on a loan, let them summons him to court." If the company had acted in a legal manner it would have been fine - following us around physically, speaking to me about the loan when I am on it in no way, threatening to take away items for a non-secured loan, threatening to garnish his disability check, threatening to put him up on fraud charges, pounding on our door so hard it scares the neighbors, leaving information about the loan taped to our door - none of that was legal but was designed to cause stress and he already gets disability for psychological problems so it was all very illegal - we have had to seek legal help

Last: "And if you've a personality disorder diagnosis, I didn't realize there was a cure for any counselor to pronounce you out of therapy?"
A couple things on this:
- Borderline Personality Disorder does not have to be a disorder which negatively affects a person for their entire life. The person can learn how to retrain their thinking amongst other things and this causes the person to be able to interact in a manner which is not unhealthy either to the person or others. Borderline Personality Disorder is often brought on by an abusive childhood and can thus be worked through if dealt with in the correct manner. There are other factors which can also cause Borderline Personality Disorder but when abuse is a factor, working through that allows the person to heal and relearn how to perceive things and deal with things. Most personality disorders are lifelong, Borderline Personality Disorder can be but it also may not be.
- Just because a therapist ir a doctor is not supposed to do something does not mean they never do it. If that were the case would you hear of

Now, questions and comments for you - what exactly gives you the right to come at me in such an aggressive manner as if I am somehow on trial and you are my judge? You don't know me from Adam. If you want to give me advice, fine - do that. Don't second guess what I have said as if you somehow know more about me than I do. Don't come at me as if I am somehow not worthy of posting here - do I not measure up to your standards of what you think people here should be? If that is the case - when exactly was a profile made that decided what kind of problems a mentally ill person was allowed to have or not have? Do you just have a problem with people who state they have been abused - or is it that I revealed one of my diagnoses? I have honestly learned over time not only to accept the person I am (that does not mean I cannot change whatever parts I feel need changing) but to love and respect myself too, and while at times I may find I have moments where my self esteem slips or I become depressed - I will not allow it to happen simply because of words like the ones you flung at me. I find what you said to be quite insulting and honestly seems to be purposely meant to cause harm or trigger. You have angered me a bit I will admit, but nowhere close to trigger so if either of those were your intent, you failed. If you did not intend on doing either - I would seriously check what you say before sending it - and ask yoyrself "how would I feel if I were this person and read this?"