Hello.
I'm sorry you're dealing with a lot of pain and guilt. Drinking intensifies those feelings. Perhaps lying down and sleeping off some of the alcohol will help. Allow yourself to put aside the pain and guilt and pick it up only when you are sober and able to cope. What happened has happened - please find a new psychologist because continuing a dual relationship with the current one will only complicate things and harm you.
Please get some rest. Take care of you right now.