First, there's absolutely nothing wrong with enjoying gay porn.

Second, I doubt it's so much that things are actually happening as you are noticing them because you're on alert. Much like people say every time they look at a clock it's 9:11. It's not that it's the only time they look at a clock, it's just that they're noticing it when it happens.

So what's likely happening is that there's something subconscious going on that has you on edge. Possibly like Valentina was saying, but it's a deep-seated shame that you don't even realize is there. Maybe something else? Then you notice things like a quarrel or something at work when normally you wouldn't think to notice it.