Your husband is extremely abusive, my jaw dropped reading it how awful it is, pepper spray and button story...ugh. But we can't change or often understand other people. All we can change or fully understand is ourselves.

I would explore in therapy why you are ok staying with extremely abusive man and it doesn't seem to phase that much yet you become angry and pretty hostile with anonymous posters who only wish you well?

I would definitely explore that in therapy. I would kind of expect person being angry and terrified around such awful husband and kind of not be bothered with what some random forum members say. But it's the other way around with you!

I strongly believe therapy might help. And yes you tolerating abuse is a lot to do with your childhood, you recreate it. Please talk to your t about it

And single people do not need to live on the streets. I am single must of my adulthood , I am 50 snd certainly never lived on the street. I rent an apartment and did so my whole life. One doesn't need a husband to survive and be off the streets. And if you are abused there is domestic abuse shelter. I wish you well

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