Actually, people at work love me. Because I'm nice, polite and sweet...and possibly disarmingly clueless. I get the job done, I help co-workers and customers. But when it comes to socializing outside the professional role, I kind of...I'm scared of most of them. It is very easy to get along with me, because I'm non-judgmental, peaceful, cooperative and not aggressive in the slightest. People at work are very nice to me. Even if I do something that makes them angry, once they realize its me, they switch to kind and understanding. I've never been yelled at.

But I don't know how to engage them in other conversation. Can I talk to the manager about, say, how long they served in the military? Is that okay? Is it weird if I ask about their dogs or more about their interest in fashion? Is it okay for me to explain my erratic behavior as attributed to my mental illnesses or mild cognitive impairments so that they understand why I behave the way I do? Or is that too much personal information?

I told one of the head managers I might be epileptic because my supervisor told me to tell her, and she said I don't need to tell her every detail of my personal life. And I was like, "I thought you would want to know if I might have a seizure in the work place." And she just looked at me and turned away. So I feel like I did something wrong by saying that, even though a supervisor told me to. I did tell her I was bipolar. But only because I know my psychological issues affect my performance and I wanted her to know that, and to know I'm really trying very hard. Its not like I go around spouting off about my disorders and impairments left and right. Not everyone needs to know that stuff.

What also sucks is that its an outdoor sports store. I hike a little. That's it. These people go fishing and hunting, and do all sorts of things I have never done. So I have no idea how to relate to most of them. They're like from another culture. I'm very much the outsider.