One of my abusers died 3 years ago, my mom went to his funeral. She asked if I wanted to go and I said no, I wanted so badly to go... Tho for my own reasons... I wanted to take permanent marker with me and write rot in hell pervert on his forehead... Tho I decided not to...

The 2nd major abuser I'm waiting for her to go.. Will I grieve for my mother? I don't think so... I thought at some point I might have unresolved issues when she goes... Tho ya know what, not exactly how I expected... I will grieve for the mother I never had and the father I never had.. (The abuser wasn't my father...)