Yeah, luckily the past few days have been better. I got three days off when I was only supposed to have two, because I had a bad allergic reaction the night before my last shift. My boyfriend is being supportive in his own way, letting me work afternoon shifts instead of mornings so I don't feel so depressed, letting me off because my face was so puffy I might look like an alcoholic instead of allergic.
He broke another of my phones though. This makes three. The problem is that he doesn't have his own phone anymore, and won't get a cheap-o no-contract one like I have for some reason, so if I want to talk to him at all I have to leave my phone at home. So when we argue when I'm at work, he's using my phone. And when he gets mad, he breaks it. He says it's better than punching a hole in the wall in our apartment, which I guess it is. I just think it's a bit hypocritical to tell me I need to be able to stop myself from crying, but he doesn't have to stop himself from smashing my phones. Well, it's pretty much his one vice. That and coming off condescending when he's frustrated.
This time though he said he doesn't want to take my phone anymore. I'm not sure what I should read into that. Maybe he just thinks I'll be less likely to get on the wrong bus and stuff like that if I have my phone with me. That's best-case-scenario. On the other hand, maybe he just doesn't want to talk to me while I'm at work. Which makes me feel bad, but I get it. And I suppose I should be able to get through it without talking to him. But I miss him. I'm working a 10.5 hour day and I won't get to talk to him until I get home, 14 hours after I left. I took my phone today because I needed to update it and stuff, and want to use the work internet instead of my data. He said the same thing. He wasn't clear if he wants me to keep doing this, or if he's changed his mind and will take my phone next time. The fact that I'm willing to give up my phone for 3 hours of bus a day just to talk to him says something. But I do think I might be more organized if I had it. I'm a list-maker, and having something that will make sounds to remind me to do something is enormously helpful.
But eventually he'll have to get a new phone, because work won't be able to get ahold of him. And at some point they'll realize they have the same phone number for both of us, and neither of us has mentioned it whenever they're trying to get ahold of us. The owner knows we're a couple, but I don't think anyone else does, and as we've already been falsely accused of stealing from the store (it was a break-in and nothing went missing, it would have been the exact opposite if we wanted to take something), I'd rather not give them another reason to think our loyalties might be divided. We were accused by the police though, not them. Jerk cop asked me if I could answer some questions while I was at my other job, I figured I was just a witness, until he started grilling me about some time my boyfriend supposedly covered my shift without telling anyone. I was so mad he did that at my work, with all the owners and managers sitting across the room. And I don't think even the cop knew we were together. We don't need any more prejudice.

Oh well, today isn't going too badly anyway. Surprisingly slow for a Monday, not to mention the last day my customers can drop stuff off and get it back before Christmas, though they probably haven't even considered it and the rest of the week we'll be getting people asking for rush jobs on sparkly red dresses and tablecloths decorated with holly. It does feel weird not to be able to talk to my boyfriend though. I usually at least call him when I go for a smoke break.
Which, I have not had since I started at 8 this morning, so I think I'll go do that before I get lunch.

Things seem to be looking up... all I can do is cross my fingers.