Hello allandnothing: Since this is your introductory post... welcome to PsychCentral from... the Skeezyks! I'm an older person & married. But, otherwise, I am pretty-much solitary... no family... no friends... not even any acquaintances really... by choice. I prefer to keep to myself. No good has ever come from me having anything to do with other people. (Allot of it is my own fault.) I consider my solitariness to be my gift to the world... By the way, although I've seen a number of psychiatrists & therapists over the years, none has ever offered me a diagnosis. So I don't know what mine might be.

I found your statement regarding seeing this therapist as "paying him to pretend to be my friend..." to be apropos. I no longer see a therapist. From my perspective, the ones I've seen ranged from mediocre to useless... I used to refer to my last therapist (who was actually the best of the lot) as: "rent-a-friend". I'd go in, I'd tell her about my exploits on the internet... she'd tell me about her horses... Anyway... I don't have allot of confidence in therapists. On the other hand, I know from reading posts here on PC, that there are people who say their therapists saved their lives. So I guess one's experience can vary. Hopefully you will get some additional perspectives from other members here on PC. Under any circumstances, I wish you well with your efforts...