I probably had a world full of "promise" but I was still an undiagnosed BP at that stage in my life. I was starting to come into my own as a career professional, was newly married, but I began a slow descent of self-destructive behavior that led me to where I am today - drinking, leaving jobs, blaming others. Part of my healing is getting past the regret and looking at the spiritual side - did God lead me where I am today for a reason? It's a difficult concept for me to grasp, especially as a BP individual always seeking challenges, new avenues, and success. It is tough to measure and I'm not sure it will ever end.