In my situation right now, I'm your b/f, rayna.

I know it's hard on my husband to deal with my moods and exhaustion then for him to say, "Babe, get to sleep" or "Babe, you're exhausted, please go lie down." To him, I "don't" and the cycle continues.

This is what he doesn't understand...

I can't lie down till I'm passing out because all the fears in my life right now that I have no answers for ATTACK me. It actually feels better to be sleep-deprived, and that doesn't feel good. He doesn't understand that so much is going through my mind that it's hard to concentrate, that eating hurts because the stress is affecting my digestive tract, etc. I'm too exhausted to even eat, so I do what I have to at home and the rest comes second until it becomes a "have to" because so much is going on ALL THE TIME.

I'm running to maintain until all the massive fears, concerns, upsets ease some. When they ease, I'll sleep and eat better as I always have done. But firstly, there's so much going on in real life, who need me truly, that I honest to God don't have time for self-care in its most basic form.

Is your b/f running, or is his schedule so tight that he has to pick and choose the basics (i.e. personal time over sleep, catching up on work over lunch)?

I know it has to be hard on you. It is on my husband because he has to bite the bullet from my detachment/moods and worry for me.

I wish I had answers hon. Maybe ask him if he's running if his schedule isn't showing you that he might be picking and choosing his needs because it's so hectic and demanding?

Love,

KD