Same here. I have been so overwhelmed that the thought of having some drinks to just feel relaxed for once sounds so tempting.

Over the summer I drank quite a lot to deal with my problems and I think it really alarmed my family, but I spent so much money every weekend that it was becoming a real issue.

I haven't drank for a couple months, so the only way I can truly feel relieved is when I'm sleeping, then when I wake up it all comes back instantly...

I'm learning to talk more, but most of the time I think it just goes over people's heads...