just frozen in fear, I know in the long run if it works it'll be better. but if it doesn't what happens. I need to find a psychiatrist and therapist near me i know this, just scared to go through the process agian. I hate telling my story, I've never been 100% honest with them and i know it is just hurting me but just frozen in my fear. I think i'll try the place i went to a month ago i just have to show up and hope i don't get turned away agian or this time talk to their crisis therapist. I think it may be me in a crisis.. I hate feeling so afraid of doing anything.