Hi copperstar, I'm sorry that you are having such difficulties with your diagnosis, or lack of one. Just because one T thinks you are DID is just a matter of professional opinion, and maybe a bit of straw grasping happening there, idk. You can almost twist MI symptoms to fit into any MI mold if you twist hard enough. There are also interviews and tests that can be done to check out your dissociative abilities. You really can't just say "hey, I think you are DID...let's fix it!"

Not all alters are full blown alters (with name, age, gender, etc). Alters can be as simple as holding memory fragments, emotions, or little more developed at many different levels. Alters have a job to do, a reason for being. They also don't all present like another person, they can come across as urges, feelings, impulses, or contribute ideas....

This condition is a tricky one....there is a lot of denial to it, even well into years of rehab one can still have denial...it can feel so unreal at times like "No waaay!" We still have others in denial.

This is such a misunderstood condition...more so than bipolar...and stigma is crazy weird. Hollywood didn't help none....smh.

I don't have an official diagnosis....I don't need one. I knew that I was a multiple when I was about 15 years old where we went into voluntary system wide hiding until our system crashed a year ago....32 years later. When I went and met a T here recent, I told her we can go ahead skip all the diagnosing stuff because I knew, let's start working on it.

Everyone's system is different as you'll see when others start posting, but in mine we're co-conscience... we are aware of each other to a point, but beyond that we have extreme memory issues like I can't remember yesterday or past that because memories stay with the alter that experienced them. That's the same with my "others" (hate the term alters). Everyone is an other here which means I can be outta here in a minute! Lol! We have hundreds of others with 30 or so named ones, so it's not like we are ever stabile, but we work together in co-operation.

We can talk to each other- debate, vote, discuss, collaborate, fight...much like a family does. Another thing we do is we know when an other takes over in a switch. It's quick or slow. We can step back and let an other take over and watch.

With all that said...Looking back at our past life, this condition was the only one that made sense for everything that has happened. Like a key that fits a lock, so for us it's a no brainer.

We just spent the last year getting to know our system and selves, 30 years late.

So, I don't know if that helped any, but hopefully it gives you one example to look at. A few of the other accounts that post on here are classic DID, so they might be able to help you more. I just call us a multiple minus the DX label.