Read the first page, I agree with the part about not diagnosing yourself.

Real narcissism is no fun.

I had a nonspecific personality disorder that took 7-8 years of treatment to heal.

I'm definitely not proud of my narcissistic traits.

I can definitely say that this forum is helping me deal with them.

The best thing I can say, which is what I said in my first post, is if you are in therapy to talk to your therapist about this and if you're not you might want to consider it.

I also had some borderline traits so for me narcissism was no fun because its like I had the enemy within.