I thought a was asexual for a very long time, although I am and always had been attracted to the opposite sex, I just never wanted to. Then I realized it was the fear of sex that was what It was. Maybe because of my severe lack of self esteem.
I've never been raped or molested as a child, so I didn't know the exact reason for this. When I started having mild manic episodes, or started drinking, which ever came first, I noticed to want physical contact more and more. But sober and not manic, I have no desire for sex. My boyfriend of almost 4 years have had our arguments, and my condition can turn into a break up or him cheating on me and I know this. But after about a year of no sexual contact, He still says he wants to marry me. Psh. We'll see how that plays out.