I've been doing a lot of reading about others life experiences and it's like it sounds so much of my life.

I was lucky enough to have 2 sisters when I was younger, we were all a year apart, and we played dolls, house, cooking, and make believe together- which I felt was normal.

I was "cross dressing" by the time I was 6 years old with strong feelings of being female. I know I was envious of females all my life.

I'd sit and watch my mother get made up and nails done.

Everytime I cross dressed and got caught, I'd get spanked, ridiculed, and publicly humiliated. This is about par with the multiple personality thing that we have going on. We buried these feelings deep and became unhappy.

We buried this idea and lived dumb and numb for 30 years. Now it's presented itself full time, the obsession that this isn't right.

We watched Sona Avedian's story and is so inspired.

We now have future goals...we just have to deal with the present. Waiting is such the hardest part.