I'm sorry. My family is going through a lot of stuff this year too and it's very hard. Last year what we were going through was even worse, I think because it was new and shocking stil, and nobody really felt like doing it. This year we're doing the usual stuff and it's good but it is also sad to do something that we know won't be part of the old traditions because those are gone. I don't know what to say except I feel for you. It's not an easy time.