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My "normal" state is that of a Debbie downer filled with fear and a socially avoidant person.
My manic state is no fear.
Wanting to do something and doing it.
social, outgoing, curious, etc.
Although every time I have been manic, and done amazing things, and had amazing sex or whatever. You know, two summers ago I went to my first baseball game(s) 3 concerts, downtown clubs, drinking, drugs. It was AMAZING.
BUT I always end up hitting that peak and falling into the abyss of depression.
So I take whatever meds they give me. damn I miss it though.
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The perfect way is only difficult for those who pick and choose. Do not like, do not dislike; all will then be clear. Make a hairbreadth difference and heaven and earth are set apart; if you want the truth to stand clear before you, never be for or against. The struggle between "for" and "against" is the minds worst disease.
Sad veiled bride please be happy,
Handsome groom, give her room.
Loud Loutish lover, treat her kindly
Though she needs you, more than she loves you.
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