I haven't been in here lately. I still need prayers for myself been great that my coworkers welcome me back ever since that insurance job let me go, still hate the fact that my pay is part time. I am looking for something on campus may take a risk and apply to a position on campus see where it takes me. However, I am looking at nonprofit jobs but still aren't sure what to apply for as I am looking to work with business clients similar to previous job. I find that call center jobs put way too much pressure on employees and fire them whenever they wish!

I got my money where I want it well just about there if I had more pay. I was hoping to make plans to move but that other job let me go. Embarrassing still at home as an adult yet my career still can't seem to pick up! I am so miserable I have nowhere else to go and my pay is still not enough to afford anything on my own. I need a job that isn't gonna be so quick to let me go because of not fulfilling what they want.

I still haven't felt alive or happy as my time is solely focused on a career and making more money. I don't have time to waste to sit around; so exhausted physically and mentally when the hell is this gonna end?! I thought it ended with previous job.

My prayers are still to find a job who provides training and will be happy to learn a new field even if it isn't IT. I am just tired of the IT field ****ing me around and too much time has been wasted - I am taking a risk in my career to look elsewhere and try something new. I have not given up my freedom on moving somewhere else and the resolve is still strong as ever if I could get another job asap that'd be ideal however I want to be careful with the next set of employers still gauging as to how their expectations are for employees. At my job, just stressful too many problems coverage problem always on call hate that and hate working at nights I want something simplistic in my next job.

Skill wise I still need improvement that's another prayer for me too. Hate how the job process is beyond slow like ever before. I still have confidence and self esteem issues that needs to be raised I still feel stupid at times in interviews because I still never had the experience they are looking for but I need to wow them in other ways. So tired of the bs in interviews, the pompous rudeness I have endured from employers and the idiot recruiters who have no idea what they are doing.

Another prayer is since I am still part time I am gonna be struggling to pay my car insurance next month plus I gotta pay my registration and possibly emissions testing for the car on top of paying for gas. What the hell does this mean in the end? Too many struggles and zero help in my life yet others have had help which is not fair. Why am I the one who is doing all the work? It still pains me that I am on my own still have the crying days. I am not sure if this is preparing me to close this abusive chapter in my life and open something up with a brand new power that may be possible.

Anyway, please pray for me. Hopefully, some light will brighten for me and I can start implementing my plans even quicker this is about my happiness; happiness I never had the luxury to enjoy and use. I want to go up in pay not down!