Hello (((RIO))). I think what Sky said has alot of merit, but I also feel that you are trying to bring closure into the situations that have brought you the PTSD. Replaying the incident is very normal part of life when someone has PTSD. The thoughts are probably being provoked because you have no closure on the incident and it still scares you in some manner because the closure to the incident did not include the closure necessary to bring comfort and stability to you feeling safe. (Sorry you can blame Sigmund Freud for the comparatives) LOL. Anyway you will possibly and probably focus mentally on the events that have not been closed and brought assurity to your well being. Possibly journaling and getting the words on paper may help you to see that you no longer have to deal with Creating the closure necessary to feel safe and replay the incident until you feel safe and secure. This is called Acknowledgement Journaling. Acknowledgement Journaling creates a Barrier and a safety net to the replaying of the outcome of a traumatic event, so that you can see that rationally you are safe and can move on because you dont have to recreate the closure to feel safe and secure. You can see in black and white through writing that you can be safe because you got through the episode and that in reality you can get through another event if it happens, therefore sickness and other events that may leave lasting impressions of PTSD and Anxiety or Panic are reduced in time through realizing that you can persevere and get through trauma you may experience in life. I hope the best for you I feel that if you do choose to Journal you will be able to move forward in time (witht he help of your therapist) if you are just honest with yourself that what happened int he past still affectsf your life today, and will affect your life until you get some acknowledgement that you are still hurt and feel that the events in the past are still holding you back in recovering. Your therapist is a very valuable tool in rediscovering new ways to react to trauma. Please use your therapist in the manner in which is needed and I feel you will do well with the therapist available at this time. Take care (((RIO))). Soidhonia