(((DAMAJDANCER))). Try to get the support you need to help you when needed. A strong support team is sometimes the number 1 key to success in recovery when you re not strong enough to help yourself . I am very sorry that you are struggling but I hope that you will sincerely take the advice of others that have struggles as well with drug and alcohol issues that with good support you can persevere and move on with your life. You jsut have to take things one day at a time. Mistakes will still happen it is how you choose to deal with the mistakes that makes the most difference. Dare to be a Survivor. I hope the best for you (((DAMAJDANCER))) in your recovery process. PM anytime. Soidhonia