DD, I wish you wouldn't go, but I get the feeling of frustration and upset. My first few times of dealing with issues around the forum there was actually a feeling of betrayal for me, as unreasonable as that was.

I've had a couple of huge things happen for me in therapy in the last few weeks and wish I felt like it was safe to share them on the forum. A couple are just breakthroughs for me that sound a little silly -- like after 4 years of T trying to get me to see that I do not have to constantly compare myself to others to ensure that I am appearing 'normal' and do not get exposed as the weirdo I think I am in my head, I suddenly just realized, I really DON'T have to do that! I AM basically normal and the ways in which I am not are not ways in which I want to be normal anyway. hahaha! I can just be who I am without comparing myself to some 'standard' in my head. I cannot tell you how huge that was for me and what a feeling of lightness and relief. That has made such a huge, dramatic difference in my moods and in coping with people questioning my choice not to be around my mother. Anyway, that is the first big thing, and not so personal that it feels unsafe to put it out there, but it would be nice if there was a place to discuss this stuff where I did not feel that I had to guard so much.